I Am Good Soil

For the first time in over 10 years, I am in love with myself and I am walking in my purpose. I’m out of a stretch of low self esteem and heartbreaks. I wanted to wallow in my misfortune, But God kept giving me more things and more people to nurture and love. I watched family, coworkers, friends and frequent acquaintances benefit from my light, love and laughter. I was fighting internal hidden battlefields of the heart and mind, they were leaving me refreshed, happy and encouraged.

See, sometimes, the devil fights us because we are good soil and he knows that anything God plants in us will bear good fruit. Understanding that the enemy attacks at our greatest strength made me realize that I AM GOOD SOIL!

I count it on joy when I’m able to help others see the light where they only saw night. It was this act that helped pull me out of my own darkness and sprout. I was buried for what felt like an eternity. Giving so much of myself to others that there was rarely anything to give to myself. I yearned for stars in the sky and I kept telling the Lord, “I’m a bird, you gotta let me fly!”

At my core, I knew I was so much more than my pain and circumstances. I knew that there was purpose planted inside of me and if I could just crack the seed break the soils surface, everything would be beautiful!

I stopped conforming to what the world wanted and began to live free, but in radical obedience. I knew I could breathe on things and make them great. My love can mend the broken hearted. I am strong enough to carry someone else’s pain while they get their sparkle back. I know just the right amount of reckless talk to fire you up or when to be the breeze that holds you up.

After all, my tsunami had come to an end. I prayed, cried, praised and worshipped my way through. I chased after God and wouldn’t let go until He blessed me. I knew that there were seeds planted inside of me just waiting to sprout and I had to move past the darkness in order to produce.

I. Am. Good. Soil.

This is my reminder that as I step into my 38th year on this earth on March, 14, 2019, that I am amazing and I can do ALL things through Christ who lives in me!

SDG❣️

Overwhelmed?

When I’m overwhelmed I go over and beyond to do something nice and meaningful for someone else. I thought it was funny when one of my mentors told me to try it. Like, why? I’m in a sucky mood and I just want to be alone and wallow in my mess until it passes. Not so. Doesn’t work. Seclusion and isolation lead to more depression and it’s entirely to hard to break out of it, so… I tried doing something nice for someone during a personal trial and you know what??? It turned my frown upside down!

I do turn inward and take time to myself at the onset of a personal trial so that I can ground myself and level set. I often find people more needy and annoying when I’m going through something so I practice deep breathing and a pause. The pause is my favorite because in that moment my brain recalibrates and spits out positivity and love. After all, love, kindness and smiles is who I am!

The next time you are in a slump or you feel a storm brewing, start doing or saying something nice and encouraging to someone else. Essentially give away what you need and watch how quickly it all comes back to you!